just down!

Been feeling really shitty for some days now.... like throwing up for no reason *no preggy alert! thank you. Nehoo I kinda just let it slide cos i thot it might have been food poising but every now and then i feel that urge to throw up *is that english?* ah well... nehoo i def need to go see a doc, definately monday. I cant be travelling under such condition. That being said i'm still gona meet up with some special people tomorrow at this wedding I plan to attend. I really hope I dont break down and cry at the end of it all.... I mean just typing this alone is getting me teary eyed *is that english?* ah well. *sniffs*

*blank stare*

I'm really gona miss you guys. I really need to start packing *yea i tend to leave things to the last minuite* thats my motto. NOT!!! I'm gona have to get some shopping done on monday, get my hair done on MONDAY!! get all my things together... all on MONDAY!!!! Can i really get all these done on MONDAY!!!! arghhhhh!!!!!!!!!! this is when i wish my parents were in the country. Oh yea I also plan to see a doc' on MONDAY!!! *SIGH!!!!*

Did i mention I'm extremely nervous about leaving, every one's like "you should be excited" well.... nah, I'm more nervous than excited.

*blank stare*

I'm really trying hard to keep it together, I'm close to just bursting into tears... *a few more drops and i'm there* Gona miss all my friends. This is getting really..... ..... .... okay, i'm gona force myself to sleep and try not to ****

xoxo